FILMS THAT WILL CHANGE YOUR LIFE!

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If you havent noticed that theres something wrong with our world, I would personally suggest you watch each of these films, though I would suggest not all together back to back. I did give this list to a friend at work, and told her this, but she went ahead and did it anyway.

It blew her away.

Stuff  like ZAddendum does take a few viewings as the financial bit in part one does take some digestion.

The bottomline is that our world is wrong, and continues to be wrong until we shrug off the division that we are encouraged to adopt, and change things. Being openminded enough to watch these films and take on the information, is the first step.

Zeitgeist Addendum http://video.google.co.uk/videoplay?docid=7065205277695921912&ei=KG3jSr-vBtii-AaBlZD3CQ&q=Zeitgeist+Addendum+&hl=en&client=firefox-a#

Loose Change http://video.google.co.uk/videoplay?docid=7866929448192753501&ei=b23jSsWxI5LW-Aa8ld2TBw&q=loose+change&hl=en&client=firefox-a#

Taking Liberties (since 1997)     http://video.google.co.uk/videoplay?docid=-3351275215846218544&ei=i23jSuHcC9yf-AbftsDzBw&q=Taking+Liberties+(since+1997)&hl=en&client=firefox-a#

The Story of Stuff       http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gLBE5QAYXp8

McLibel – Two People Who Wouldnt Say Sorry            http://video.google.co.uk/videoplay?docid=547901963081075342&ei=2G3jSqzkOcem-AaJlrXrBw&q=McLibel+-+Two+People+Who+Wouldnt+Say+Sorry&hl=en&client=firefox-a#

The Miniature Earth http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fA6MhyK60iI

Supersize Me http://video.google.co.uk/videoplay?docid=-1432315846377280008&ei=KWjjSqO1K5fW-Aa6jMWNDA&q=supersize+me&hl=en&client=firefox-a#

FRUSTRATION

FRUSTRATION

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Sometimes, more frequently than I would like to acknowledge, I feel that I am serving no purpose.

I keep hearing a little voice in my head telling me that I should be doing something more real, more meaningful, something that might make things change for the better. But as tends to be the case, the little voice doesn’t suggest any particular course of action.

Voices in ones head rarely prove helpful.

It’s just your mind prodding you mentally, conscience being spiteful, because it knows, as well as you do, that a life filled with a regular mixture of work and playing computer games, uploading videos to YouTube, or writing blog’s, doesn’t really serve any true purpose.
It’s just buying into the distraction that our culture feeds on like starving refugees from a land in concealed torment, all to avoid realising the fact that we are wholly and totally fucked if things go on the way they are going.

The problem is that in the past, the voices tended to hint that I should be writing, or paint or drawing, you know, doing something constructive and creative. The things I was born to do.
Now, there’s still that, but with the knowledge, the true knowledge that everything I see around me, everything I thought I knew, points to the unavoidable fact that I am a slave. A demented hamster, running its life away on a wheel.

And knowing you are a slave is a damning experience, when you are surrounded by a multitude who don’t know that.
As I always said, ignorance is bliss, truly.

Even my job is fading from being anything relevant. Ok, I help people in my own way and support them when I can, but it’s a job, not really a choice. It’s something that I’ve done for years and so know, oh not all the paperwork that seems to grow and grow, year in year out, but the basics of the job, the art of care. But sometimes I doubt my true capacity to care for others, because I know that I’m doing it because it is all I know, and it pays the bills. And so keeps me on the treadmill, day in day out, working to pay out. On and on it goes.

On the flipside, the knowledge I have now does have its benefits.

I realised the other day that I have in fact TWO debt collection agencies after me for a debt over 6 years ago. One is with a bank I have never even had an account with, which is kind of amusing. In the past this sent me into depression and worry, but now that the veil has been lifted on the whole lie of money and of credit and of debt, I only find it slightly annoying.
The sad thing is that the people whose function it is to enforce these things are blind to what they are doing.
What a joke!
I spoke to my credit card people today and paid off a bit of what I owe, but couldn’t help but notice that the woman I was speaking to was so cold, so inhuman. It was as if, to be in that kind of job, you have to give up something, some part of your personality that lets you have even the vaguest empathy for the people you are speaking to. Forcing you to adopt an attitude that those owing your company ‘money’, are below you, and not worthy of interacting with in a human fashion. Of course the problem is always that me being me, and knowing what I know, serves to create the problem I’m guessing. Because I cant take them seriously. After all, theyre asking for money from me that never existed before I borrowed it, which if you really think about it, it verging on the psychotic. So, I tend to just approach the whole thing like its a game I’m playing, its makebelieve. I will laugh and joke with such people and not really take the matter seriously. They, on the otherhand, I’m guessing just dont realise the game, and so get the hump.
Its rather tragic.
Or maybe the woman on the end of the phone is actually being human. Pathetic, narrow minded, easily manipulated and judgemental.
Maybe being human isn’t the key to this whole thing. Maybe we need to be something else. Maybe it’s our humanity that has let us get to this stage in our history. Maybe being human isn’t all it’s cracked up to be. Maybe we need to be something else.
But what exactly.
When I was in India, I met lots of westerners who were there seeking enlightenment, and some who felt they had found it. And you wouldn’t believe how annoying they were!
But my enlightenment came here, in this country, not one oozing with spirituality. And it has nothing to do with spending two weeks not talking, or learning mantra’s in a ashram. It is barebones enlightenment, the truth of the now, the world we live in and the agenda’s that perpetuate the misery of millions.
How does one deal with that?
What can you hope to change things when faced with such huge issues?
Hide yourself away?
Continue on even though you walk and act in a world you know to be false, to be an illusion, whose only aim is to enslave you, while eroding your freedom and liberty?
Or do you run, flee from it and find somewhere far away and wait for the tragic day that it to finds you again?

For a traveller like me, that last option is always an option. But the fight isn’t out there, its here. And once you have the knowledge, I feel personally that you cant run away and ignore it.

I’ve done my share of protest. The Poll tax, the Criminal Justice Bill. I’ve done my bit over the years, but it seems that the fight is never ending, that every year more and more arises that requires us to fight for the simple freedoms we feel we have.
And what has changed?
What have we fought off?
Will we ever win, or will it take something tragic and vast to change our world, and only then maybe, the survivors will crawl from the rubble and make something better?
It bothers me you know.

THE ELECTORAL REGISTER

I am angry.

I am very angry.

Over recent months I have had through my letterbox a series of letters entitled VOTER REGISTRATION FORM. It contains the usually stuff, all the personal details you can give about address etc, and states quite clearly, You are required by law to give the information asked for in this form.

The ‘law’ this refers to is Representation of the People Act 1918. Though the bit that requires you by law to register was pasted in via an amendment resulting in people being compelled by law to register or face a £1000 fine.

In detail, www.parliment.uk states

‘On the issue of compulsory registration, it should be noted that it is already an offence to fail to supply information to a registration officer when requested. This includes requests for information on an annual canvass form, and is provided for under regulation 23 of the Representation of the People (England and Wales) Regulations 2001. The offence is punishable by a fine of up to £1,000.The result is that registration is, in effect, compulsory at the time of a canvass.

http://www.publications.parliament.uk/pa/cm200405/cmselect/cmodpm/243/243we03.htm

You notice that this is an ‘offence’ – OFFENCE, crimes. The doing that which a penal law forbids to be done, or omitting to do what it commands; in this sense it is nearly synonymous with crime. (q.v.) In a more confined sense, it may be considered as having the same meaning with misdemeanour, (q.v.) but it differs from it in this, that it is not indictable, but punishable summarily by the forfeiture of a penalty.

This is one of the over 3000 new offences or amendments resulting in an offence that the Labour government have implemented in this present period of power.

Thanks Tony!

Now I don’t vote.

My personal opinion and stand point being that I don’t want to silently consent to the actions of a government by participating in the process of voting because it’s a game that serves only to divide the population and enable a privileged few to maintain their positions of power. More importantly, I don’t vote because of this countries contribution to the arms industry and the civilian deaths that result in the HUGE amounts of weapons that we export world wide, which comes from the taxes of the UK population. Our governments maintain an unethical and immoral franchise on the death and misery of not only the UK population, but also the people of any country where their weapons are used. Why would I want to be a part of that? Why would I want to play a game that ultimately only a few benefit from, and for the rest of us, is a sham, a distraction, and has no legitimate place in our lives, except to force us to exist as we do?

Now, the apparent reason for the need to register is to get your oh so democratic right to vote in local and national elections. Yes, you, the general public, get the chance to be divided and choose who you want to run the government for the next term, though if you have any sense, you will have realised long ago that there is little difference between the parties of choice, that’s Labour and Conservative, and despite a change of government the bureaucracy that gives the machine of government tends to remain the same. The result? Nothing ever changes for the good.

So surely, just as you have the democratic right to vote, surely for whatever reason, you have the democratic right NOT to vote.

Isn’t that what democracy is all about?

So, let’s suppose that the electoral roll is all about the democratic right to vote. It isn’t at all, but let’s start with that piece of hokum.

THE DEMOCRATIC RIGHT TO VOTE

So, in signing the electoral roll, you have the democratic right to not have the democratic right to withhold your personal information and maintaining your privacy. So, in being legally bound to give your information and complying, you don’t have the democratic right to privacy, but you do have the democratic right to not vote.

I’m struggling with the concept of democracy.

So there you are, Joe Public, part of a society and actively contributing via taxes, though I disagree with that personally because a large proportion of that money tends to be spent on personal perks for the privileged classes (who we have the democratic right to vote for!) or things that kill people. (£5,474m total exports in 2007) So, you’re contributing, you live in the country, but you don’t have the right to NOT be involved in a political system that over the last few years has been shown to be not only corrupt, but totally unaccountable to the general public?

Let’s have a look at the definition of Democracy.

Democracy’s most basic definition comes from its Greek origins, The term is derived from the Greek: δημοκρατία – (dēmokratía) “popular government”, which was coined from δῆμος (dêmos) “people” and κράτος (krátos) “power” – People Power? Even though there is no specific, universally accepted definition of ‘democracy’, there are two principles that any definition of democracy includes, equality and freedom. These principles are reflected by all citizens being ‘equal before the law’, and having equal access to power. Additionally, all citizens are able to enjoy legitimized freedoms and liberties. Wikipedia.org

Seems rather straightforward doesn’t it?

All those juicy words that make you feel as good as having your feet rubbed, like equality and freedom and liberty….ahhhhhh nice!

Problem is of course and as the threat of being fined a grand tells us, its all a load of bollocks!

When was the last time you felt equal before the law, or noticed that many of those liberties we in this country have been so find of for centuries seem to have been slowly evaporating over time? So, basically, you don’t have the democratic right to vote. You don’t have any choice in the matter. You have to and that’s that! But why?

THE REAL REASON FOR THE ELECTORAL

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Once they’ve compiled that collection of millions and millions of names and addresses, its stored in a local government database, and the information can be purchased by anyone wiling to buy it, and for whatever reason.

This can range from people who want to sell you crap and like loading your mailbox with junk mail to do so, credit reference agencies and debt collection agencies. In fact anyone! You can go on the web now, and find the right sight and pay for the information on anyone. All you need is the site and a credit card. In 2001, a retired accountant Brian Robertson won a landmark High Court case to prevent his local authority from selling his electoral details for commercial use. The 58-year-old resident of Pontefract, West Yorkshire, brought the case after Wakefield City Council refused to guarantee that it wouldn’t sell Robertson’s name and address to marketing firms or credit reference agencies. A ruling found the council’s actions breached Robertson’s right to privacy under the Human Rights Act.

He won and so the government, backup by the interests of credit reference agencies such as Experian and Equifax just moved the goal posts and threw in an amendment of two which the brave Brian Robertson continued to fight. Sadly, with the changes the end result was summed up by this headline

High Court throws out challenge to electoral register access for credit reference agencies

Credit reference agencies have retained the right to access the full version of the electoral register, following a ruling in the High Court yesterday. Access by such organisations for the purpose of credit scoring, credit checking and the detection of money laundering, is lawful and fully compliant with human rights legislation, ruled Mr Justice Kay.
Credit reference agencies are now the only commercial organisations entitled to access the full register.
Yesterday’s action was brought by retired accountant Brian Robertson, who had argued that access by credit reference agencies infringed his right to free and fair elections, as set out in the European Convention of Human Rights.
“The decision will be welcomed in the credit reference and financial services industry as clarifying that the current law represents a fair balance between privacy and human rights,” said Margaret Tofalides, a Partner at Addleshaw Goddard specialising in data protection and privacy law.
Addleshaw Goddard represented leading credit reference agencies Experian and Equifax, who were interested parties in the proceedings brought against the government. Experian and Equifax argued that access by credit reference agencies to the full version of the register was in the public interest.
A previous action by Mr Robertson successfully argued that access to the Register for marketing purposes was unlawful. A 2002 amendment to the Representation of the People (England and Wales) Regulations 2001 followed this action, introducing two versions of the electoral register – an edited version from which individuals may opt out, and a full version from which there is no opt-out. The edited version is commercially available for any lawful purpose, including direct marketing, but access to the full version is restricted to matters vital to the public interest.

So, is the Electoral Register about the democratic right to vote, or the credit and financial services industry……and more importantly, is their interest anything, I repeat, ANYTHING to do with the public interest?

Now, the threat of breaking the law and getting a £1000 fine seems to make sense. The government is simply supporting the interests of the credit agencies, and those who collect credit owed to them. Its nothing to do with democracy, its all to do with money and know where you are, just in case you owe them some.

THE TRUTH IS OUT

Guardian gagged from reporting parliament

Guardian is prevented from identifying the MP who has asked the question, what the question is, which minister might answer it, or where the question is to be found.

The Guardian is also forbidden from telling its readers why the paper is prevented – for the first time in memory – from reporting parliament. Legal obstacles, which cannot be identified, involve proceedings, which cannot be mentioned, on behalf of a client who must remain secret.

The only fact the Guardian can report is that the case involves the London solicitors Carter-Ruck, who specialise in suing the media for clients, who include individuals or global corporations.

The Guardian has vowed urgently to go to court to overturn the gag on its reporting. The editor, Alan Rusbridger,

said: “The media laws in this country increasingly place newspapers in a Kafkaesque world in which we cannot tell the public anything about information which is being suppressed, nor the proceedings which suppress it. It is doubly menacing when those restraints include the reporting of parliament itself.”

The media lawyer Geoffrey Robertson QC said Lord Denning ruled in the 1970s that “whatever comments are made in parliament” can be reported in newspapers without fear of contempt.

He said: “Four rebel MPs asked questions giving the identity of ‘Colonel B’, granted anonymity by a judge on grounds of ‘national security’. The DPP threatened the press might be prosecuted for contempt, but most published.”

The right to report parliament was the subject of many struggles in the 18th century, with the MP and journalist John Wilkes fighting every authority – up to the king – over the right to keep the public informed. After Wilkes’s battle, wrote the historian Robert Hargreaves, “it gradually became accepted that the public had a constitutional right to know what their elected representatives were up to”.

This seems to be a media gagging order.

The public have a right to know what happens in the parliment of their country for good or ill. This seems to be yet another example of our government restricting the rights we have to information, whatever bias it may contain, as we all know the media functions as advocates of oneside or the other. From the information they provide, howver biased, we have the opportunity to make our decisions. If the media is gagged in favour of those media sources that produce favourable media information to the government of that moment, we lose our choice.

No government should be unaccountable.

This seems to be yet another way of our present government controlling

REWARDS

New is that the Irish have apparently agreed to the Lisbon Treaty.

And it looks as if Tony Blair will be the first EU president.

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Now I have to admit I’m not one of those people who have been gatekeepered into the whole New World Order thing, but I see a series of events occuring and things falling into place. A good example is the North American Union, the unification of Mexico, North America and Canada initiated by George W, and that recieved a suspicious lack of publicity. The important thing to note here is that Obama hasnt shelved the plan, so I guess that plan is going ahead.

So, we will end up with an American Super-state.

Then, as a reward for his silent consent in the lies about WMD’s and his support for the invasion of Iraq, and now Afghanistan, Tony Blair will be the head of the EU, which is rapidly turning into another super-state. So, thats two world super-states. That just leaves Asia, which in my opinion, unless there are things moving there that we don’t get to hear about, strikes me as a bit of a problem. Oh, not all those little countries including Japan, but the big ones. India & most importantly China.

Like I said, I just can’t see China rolling over and play the game somehow. Ok, theyre just as capitalist as everyone, especially since they got back Hong Kong, and changed…hmmm…nothing!

I can see it happening by China being given free reign to just absorb every other Asian country.

For those from the NWO conspiracy side, this will leave only one final step. The 3 world super states being absorbed into one global power. One government, one currency…..unification and the ultimate outcome of globalisation.

I DONT BELIEVE IT!

Just got back from the supermarket, with my head still reeling from what I saw. A large bin, filled to over flowing with stuff, for British Troops in Afghanistan I’m assuming>

Do the people of this town, let alone this folorn country expect that sundries and soap will help British troops engaged in the wars that come from this centuries hidden agenda of globalisation?

The British public do love their charities and mock benevolence dont they? Whether its starving kiddies in Africa, spurred on my Bob Geldof, to this pathetic example of generosity.

People! British cannon fodder dont need soap, or shoe polish or anything you with your feeble concept of the hierachy of needs, believes they need. They dont need new tanks, and helicopters, bombs and guns.

They need to come home and leave the US to its own personal attempts to dominate the planet in the name of democracy! Ultimately what a soldier needs is another job, one that doesnt involve being used like chess pieces while those deciding the moves sit in another country and frown about how terribly sad all these young lives being lost is, while simultaneously getting fat and rich from their legally endorsed arms manufacture profits.

Wars may have been waged in the past for freedom, and liberty and to hold off the oppressor and aggressor, but today wars are waged, simply to make money.

Two things are guaranteed in war today.

The longer it goes on the more people die.

And

The longer it goes on the more money can be made.

I only wish that the same kind of spirit that urged people to fill that bin, could be turned to calling on our government to stop wasting the lives of our young, and stop getting involved in other peoples power struggles.

My Personal Soapbox

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I’ve written alot of late, about lots of things, and quite frankly, putting them in as separate posts seems rather poinltess. So, I’m going to add them in here as one post, and you can make of them what you will.

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jack bones
England is like an animal carcass left in the desert.
The sun has beaten down and dried it out, while the vultures have feasted and picked at it over and over again, until all that remains is tattered remains, with bare bones forced out into the light. Fair enough, the worms are still in residence and still feeding, but their diet is growing scarcer and scarcer as the days go by. Happy to have what little they can find.

The birds keep arriving and taking their fill, while the worms desperately dine on what remains. But with every day, more flesh is taken, more bones are revealed.
But like the corpse, the bones are still there.

And once all the flesh has gone, and the worms have died and the birds have flown away for the last time, forgetting with ease their scavenged banquet, the bones will remain.

But the bones are enough.

Time and scavengers, waves of pestilence, and the blazing sun will not render them forgotten or disappeared.

If we must wait until the bones of this once great island are all that remains, then those who have faith must and will wait. Maybe only then will we be able to build again the body of England.

Until then we must live on what remains, for until we choose otherwise, we are just worms, picking at the scraps that the crows have either yet to eat, or will not swallow until all else is gone.

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Here is the West, we exist in a consumer culture.
We are urged through our culture to spend.
They used to say ‘they don’t make things like they used to.’
Its true.
Because if you have something that lasts, you don’t need to spend money on a new one.
That computer you just brought for £1000 will be out of date in 6 months.
The digital camera you just brought will be discontinued in 1 year, so if it breaks, it’s actually cheaper to buy a new one than get it repaired.
We are conditioned by the media and what is seen as cultural norms, to have the most up to date item possible.
All those people who still have VHS video recorders are looked upon as dinosaurs in the modern world. People who still listen to vinyl are the same.
The whole aim of our culture is to work to earn and then spend it all

Work – earn – buy – work – earn – update – work

We are all aware of the items we take home from the shops.
But what else are we buying?
What else are we spending our money on?
More importantly, what is someone else spending our money on?

This is a list of the other things we indirectly pay for when we earn.

We pay for research into biological weapons
We pay for small arms manufacture, 1,000,000 items of which goes missing each year.
We pay for the bombs that are dropped in Iraq & Afghanistan.
We pay for the bullets fire in every major conflict around the world.
We pay for every piece of military ordinance and equipment used by our governments.

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If morality exists within our present political framework, then it exists deep within
the darkest corners of individual minds and there it is kept hidden. The reason is
simple. It is not only the general public who exist with fear, but those in positions
of power. It is much easier to concentrate on silent consent of policy than risk losing
your position for speaking out against decisions that your leaders make.


In the case of Gary McKinnon, it is fear of repercussions in our, oh so very special
relationship with the US, a relationship that year by year seems to be becoming a one
way street. This is further reinforced by allegations of collusion with subjects like
the rendition flights being granted access to UK soil to refuel on their way to
countries in North Africa and the Middle East.
This fear instigated silence must be a terrible price to pay, but I firmly believe,
like all things are very soon accepted, as if all things, everything becomes acceptable
with repetition. And of course once an action is not fought on its moral grounds,
the individual who says nothing can not say anything in retrospect because they have
become part of the act, and so as guilty as the instigator.
It is the same for ministers who accept immoral decisions as it was with the guards
who patrolled the concentration camps. They did what they thought was right, they did
what they were ordered, they did what they did because they feared standing up for the
silent voice in their soul that made them know that it was wrong. They were surviving.
But at what cost?
The end result is the loss of integrity, the lose of conscience, and in that sad
example, the lose of thousands of lives.
We live in a world of this doctrine.
The UN will vocally denounce the military actions of some countries, while its 5
permanent members are amongst the largest exporters of military hardware on the
planet, often providing the bombs and guns used in the very same wars they denounce.
The official committees who stand for Human Rights are impotent when faced against
the agenda’s of world powers, so they cry and complain and are ultimately ignored.
Personally, I believe the present home secretary should be pitied for his decision
over the extradition of UK nationals at the behest of the Americans. Whets a sorry
excuse for a man, to not stand up for the right of UK nationals to be tried on UK
soil, rather than have his orders issued by another country.
Is there anything left of England, of Great Britain, or the United Kingdom?
To quote a song, they are Selling England, by the Pound.

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Is all that we see or seem, but a dream within a dream?

This life, this ‘dream’?
What do we do in it? What is our place within this?

I have of late been having odd dreams. Ok, not an amazing

thing to say, but to me something of merit, of note.
In my life I’ve had….well…odd dreams, dreams that felt as

if they went my own, and dreams that were connected to

others, people I’ve known, dreams of things that were about

to happen.
Now personally, these dreams have scared the crap out of

me, cos lets face it, outside of movies, things like that aren’t

meant to happen.
But they did happen, and yep, they came true of sorts.

I had a dream last night, and besides the stuff I could attribute

to stuff I’d watched on TV, the final bit sticks in my mind, even

now, 12 hours later.
It was a crowd of people, 36,000 people in fact. All representing

the amount of children who die everyday due to famine, poverty,

disease, the usual stuff.
The crowd was a protest, 36,000 people standing silent facing

parliament, all wearing child masks, African children. All silent

facing the workplace of those who pretend to have our best

interests at heart.
Silent.
Staring.
A face for every child who died that day.

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It takes a supreme spirit to be able to write and drink and take drugs, all at the same time.

It takes a supreme spirit to write in the first place!

To commit those intimacies that fog the mind and throw them up into words, there for all the world to read.
The ultimate outcome of writing something that others read, is that you will be judged, just for the act of letting your thoughts out of the brain and into something tangible.

So, why do people bother when they know the outcome.
To place yourself on a soapbox and let others metaphorically pelt you with rancid opinion. They threw out the stocks as a form of public punishment long ago, but writers place themselves in that position with every word, with every sentence.
So, as I cannot speak for the self flagellation of others, I must speak for myself.
Why bother to write?
Why waste your time in creating something that others will question, praise or mock.
As if they even have the right to.
You might say that it’s brave to expose yourself in such a way.

Well, maybe it is.

While others keep their visions and dreams and delusions in their heads, the writer casts aside the skulls captivity and lets others look inside, like your head has become something made of glass, revealing the bubbling babble within.
The reasons for writing are many. Fame. Money. The need to stir others to say something. The need to say something. Out of these, only the last is of importance.
The writer is the bravest of men or women.
The writer crucifies themselves before the reader, open seeping wounds and all.
They don’t write, they bleed, because the idea, the word, is the same as blood. An essential fluid that makes us able to live.
But first, you have to set the stage.
You can just sit down, as I have in the past, at a railway station and fill the space of a train ticket with thoughts and prose, and some of the best ideas take form in that way.
But a writer must aim to have no structure of mind, or in fact, they must aim to have as little consideration for structure as they physically can.
So.
First there is the medium.
Pen, paper, typewriter, word processor. They’re all the same.
They are just ways to form what comes out of your head. They are not part of writing. They are just the way to present it in a tangible form. Otherwise it’s just words coming out of your mind and then your mouth, and out into the ether and so lost.
No structure is how you get your mindset for such an act of defiance, as writing is.
Defiance I here you say?
Yes, because our world doesn’t seek to listen to others. Its far too busy concentrating on the important things. Pointless creation that leads to consumerism and so to money. Nobody really wants to read anything. It’s just that thankfully, the writer, as a source of impetus, forces the written word down the throats of those open enough to read. The writer may be brave, but they also have to be arrogant and selfish enough to act.
Someone wise beyond their years once said that birth and death are the same. We don’t ask for either. Writing is just the same.
Oh, people will chronicle things in the name of history or event or education and fair enough, but you have to remember that this has no creation to it. It’s simply placing something that has happened in the world or that someone should know, down in print for posterity. So it won’t be forgotten. These things are not from the mind of someone, only in the form of interpretation. True writing comes straight from the imagination like a mental enema, flushing out all that swims about in the mind and leaving it splashed over the page, like a discharge, evident for all to see.
Some will see patterns.
Some will only see a mess.
Some will see nothing at all.
The real classic writers will create things that no one understands, and there you have the reason behind such an act.
To throw off conformity.
Conformity to the reader’s ability or society’s ability, not to read, but to read and understand.
This brings me back to drugs and drink and writing.
If someone lubricates themselves so that their words seem a babble, that even the writer lacks the understanding to decipher, then surely this is as true to mental evacuation as possible and so is at its most honest.
A stream of consciousness, from someone seeking unconsciousness.
But if a drug takes away the desire to write anything, then it’s really useless. Because the words are trapped, unable to utilise the medium, whatever that might be, and without the medium the word is just a thought, neither free nor able to be judged.
The writer must always put themselves in the way of judgement.
That’s what they do.
Otherwise you’re just a guy, or a girl, sitting and thinking all kinds of weirdness, but not having the power to expose themselves before their peers.
A writer must embrace this. Must willingly offer themselves to the fatuous masses. They’ve got to be a dog’s dinner. Waiting for the slobbering, saliva dripping maw of public opinion.
If it brings them wealth then they have succeeded and failed at the same time.
If they gain fame, then they are at risk of tailoring the meal of their souls to fit the tastes of others and so are not writing what they should. For they will soon begin to tailor their thoughts to the wants of the dogs.
If you have the courage to place your consciousness and even sanity in danger in order to spew your thoughts into the medium, then you are a true writer. Because, lets face it, if you have no care for your mind, you certainly won’t be giving a rat stinking thought to what others might want.
It will only be by sheer chance that others will read such babble and think well of it.

The writer must be a base-jumper who is determined to take that leap, but who’s so drunk or stoned that they can’t recall if they’re wearing a parachute.
Those who gain a repeated tried and tested method, are not writers, because they not only know they’re wearing a parachute, but they have written proof by a third party that they’re wearing it, and have Polaroid’s of themselves putting it on.
They’re safe and they know it.
They’re not pushing boundaries, they’re jumping through hoops.
Writing should be about kicking dust in the face of your reader and daring them to continue.
You shouldn’t know you’re in danger. You shouldn’t even be thinking about that. You should just be doing it and fuck the outcome.
Good writing gathers readers by chance, not intention. The chance is that someone out there, in a world daubed with ballshit, clouded by petty vacuous consumerism, dwarfed by global corporations and a “what you should be wearing this summer” culture, clicks onto your wavelength and decides to read on.
But in the creation, the last person any writer should be thinking about is the reader. Screw them. They can like it or dislike it, the writer shouldn’t give a fuck either way.
All they should be thinking about is the joy that comes from creating something and the relief that comes from getting that clutter out of your head.
Writing should be Creative colonic irrigation.
That’s it, all that undigested meat of thought that has lain still and heavy in your brain, clogging you up. Wash that shit out.
The medium, type writer, word processor, it’s all the same. The creative alternative to a hose pipe up your arse.
Wash that shit out.
You’ll feel better afterwards.

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Oh God, the people of this country annoy me. They are so happily enslaved by all the superficial ballshit and media distraction that is thrown at them.
‘Nothing is truly more pitiful than the slave that thinks they are free.’
We have lounged in festering ignorance for so long, each knowing the truth but not having the energy to get up and do something about it.
They do so much to make dope illegal, but it’s like the whole population is stoned on that crap kind of dope that doesn’t create any fun, any laughter. Only drains the body and weighs it down with lethargy and stupor. They only need to decriminalise grass to complete the effect and truly make this nations people lose to anything but binges at the supermarket and distant memories of what they might have done to change their lot in life.
Fuckers!

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Society today is lacking symmetry in every aspect of its frustrated struggle to drag itself from day to day. Our society is like the face of severe stroke victim, the muscles slack and limp, hanging off the bone, distorted and at the mercy of only gravity, while its former structure, its former possibility of beauty remains opposing, a callous, mocking reflection of what once was in its pre-morbid state, there to taunt the bearer in every reflection, bringing only pain at the memories it declares to the victim.
A constant reminder of something that was.
A constant blighted reminder of what is.
And a promise of what will be, until death finally wipes the slate clean and memories are no more.

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The English people have lost their souls.
They have forgotten where they hid it, like a drunken man hiding his wallet in a foreign hotel room, only to wake in a dread filled panic, feeling like the victim of a multiply pile up car, but with no recollection of where he hid it.
The word GREAT should be stricken from our cultural identity and every history book written after about 1970, because we gave up our greatness when we embraced the self depravation that has lead us to lapse into the all consuming apathy that we exhibit today.
The total lack of will or comment on what has become of our cultural concept. Our apathy towards the issues we face today and that our children’s lives will be burdened by, as a result of our pointless adherence, without an expression of merit or validity.
We have become wordless, worthless peons, at the mercy of our government and the vicious agenda’s that it imposes on us without fear of accountability.
We grumble and moan like beaten slaves as events continue about us, but without the spine and courage to stand up and question our leader’s decisions. Have we been battered to the point that we will accept anything, as long as we don’t lose those luxuries that we count more important that our freedom and independence?
Accept everything but don’t take away East Enders, or my games console, or my new sofa, or my greenhouse, or my labelled cloths, or my two weeks in the sun.
Wipe up the last stains of dignity with energy monopolies and the erosion of civil liberties, but let me stay distracted and deluded.
We have become a majority of pitiful, self isolated individuals, blinkered to everything accept the hypnotists watch, as it sparkles and spins before our glazed, unfocused eyes.
We are like child abductions, simply thankful of anything that our abuser will give us of comfort, but ever ready to switch off and lay still, while he forces us to perform or penetrates us, his whispered warnings telling us we are worthless. Filling us with the fear that if resist, we will only deserve the fate that will follow, until the day comes when we accept anything, the feeling of pain or revulsion leaving us until we feel nothing at all.
Yes, there are some who speak out, there are some who stand up, but they are treated like lepers and freaks. Reckless poison vendors who should be treated with contempt by the herd, or greeted with isolation and police action until they limp away and resume their silent frustrations, while our puppeteers continue to act out their sick selfish theatre piece.

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The link between what happened in Germany and the issues that are leading people to turn to groups like the BNP here are very valid.
If you are prepared to vote for a nationalist organisation, you must be prepared to live with the outcomes of nationalism.

And you don’t have to look far to find them.
And they are never NEVER good. Its not rocket science. It’s a lesson learnt again and again.

But, sadly people who are desperate for change, who are disillusioned by a government, who don’t feel unrepresented or supported by their ‘leaders’ will always fall for it. Griffin and his buddies KNOW that they will get increased support. It’s inevitable while people fall back on ignorance and anger as their guiding lights.
But in the end, when nationalism triumphs, it will always boil down to one thing.

How PURE are you really?

How British are you really?

How worthy are you and your actions?

Hey! I can trace my family back to 1500 and they have all come from England so I’m not worried but let’s face it, most of us aren’t ethnically pure. Go back far enough and we’re descended from the French, the Italians, the Swedish and Norwegians.

But as was shown in Nazi Germany, in the end, there were Germans and there were Germans. The same will be the case anywhere that embraces a Nationalist agenda.

The BNP apparently speaks out for the British, but really what is that. It’s nothing to do with blood, and all to do with opinion and a jaded sense of self concept.
Yeah, there’s loads of people who will happily cry that’s they’re proud to be British or English, while sitting on their backsides, claiming long term benefits and bitching about how hard life is.
Yeah those foreigners coming over here, taking our jobs! Balls!!

Britain is no longer ‘great’ NOT because of immigration but because people continue to insist on being divided.
Voting in itself is and act of division.
If people suddenly woke up and realised that we don’t need to be divided because beyond all the superficial ballshit, we all have common aims and needs, and we were prepared to stand together and demand a change, this country would cease to be in the shit it is in.

We’re all angry about the MP expenses scandal, and fair go, but really….really….you know who is to blame for this action and the many disastrous actions in recent times.

YOU & ME!

Because on the whole, the people of this country have sat back and grumbled about everything that has happened, and done nothing. How many decisions has this government made that have effected our lives and we whined and bitched about it, but did nothing. The government have grown arrogant and self-interested because we have let them.
All the lives lost in pointless, economically based conflicts. Their blood is on our hands, because when we knew more about the motivations and lies involved in initiating such things, we approved with our silence.
The bombs and bullets that have led to more civilian casualties than military….we paid for them, because taxpayers money doesn’t just go into duck pond decoration and second homes, it went into the £722,307,327.62 in arms exports from the UK in 2007 alone!
The list of silently endorsed abuses goes on and on.
We have reached a point where we feel we have only limited choices and power, and politicians will tell us that the only way to change things is to vote.
POLITICIANS tell us that. The very people who will benefit from it. The very people we are now all whining about.

Here’s an example that will illustrate the whole thing nicely.

If the BNP somehow got into power, the first thing they would do, as all governments do in this situation, is to have a BIG party or meeting at No10 or wherever. It would be great, loads of happiness at being successful, lots to drink, great food, who knows.
But in the end, you know who would be paying for that party.
Yep!
You and me, the taxpayers.
That example illustrates the one simple truth. It’s all the same. Nothing would change. Here comes the new boss, same as the old boss.

Maybe we really need to spend less time bitching about the system, and start focusing on what governments and political groups don’t want us to be focusing on.
How to really change things.

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There are few things that claw at the heart and shrivel the soul than a people with as historically ingenious past as the British people, wallow in apathy and ill-founded disempowerment. They once said that this island was beyond the reach of invaders, yet those same invaders have crept into our hearts and snuffed the once bright spark of invention, initiative and the will to lead the world in every area, albeit science, art and creation in general. Once we were leaders, now we have been left barren with no will to stand up as once we did. It would be fair to say that the myth of Empire has vanished from these shores, yet I will never swear that it has gone forever. It is there, deep inside every man, woman and child. Not the arrogant urge to conquer and subjugate, but rather to rise again and take our place in the world rather than wait for the scraps from the world stage, like some poor relation, invited out of begrudging acknowledgement to a wealthy wedding.

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Thinking too big when facing the world’s condition or state is a bad idea.
It will overwhelm you if you approach such a huge series of inane and cruel issues that plague every part of your planet. Infection people with illness to sell a cure, killing and prostituting whole nations in the name of democracy, NGO’s living it up in third world countries while children sell themselves to pay of debt on your doorsteps, corporations dumping waste into our river ways, anonymous riot police acting like Nazi storm troopers towards peaceful protestors, money simply being debts to bankers paid off by wage slaves, often ignorant to the truth behind the thing they value so much, everything being a profit making company from MP’s to our local police, the class system manifest by politicians abusing their expense’s.
The list goes on and on, and the danger is that you may reach at point where you think to yourself, what can I do? It’s all too BIG!
The answer is simple.
Don’t.
Don’t focus on doing anything so large scale.
Focus all your energy on little victories.
Surely a thousand little victories count still?

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You know, all the study and investigation I have done into how the world is working, and for that matter, has worked for centuries I question.

Even though I know, I must search for more answers.

The perpetual state of wage slavery that we exist in and that we are encouraged to exist in. The literal truth that our potentials for profit and taxation are traded on the world money markets like cattle or market resources. The fact that we place ultimate value in nothing….only gaining solace from what we can covet and collect and ultimately throw away to replace with things of equal worthless. All this is meaningless if people don’t want to change, or would rather not know anything that might make them change.

And that is what I find as I speak about this stuff, sounding more and more like some raving prophet or madman. People who listen either hum or ha about it, and then avoid supporting me to help further my search, or there are the honest ones, who simply state, ‘I don’t want to know more than I know. I don’t want to open that door and find out something that will shake my grip on how I see the world and my place within it.’
They are happy, or as happy as they want to be, despite the injustice and abuse that they know they suffer at the hands of the powers that control us. They don’t want to change because the world they happily inhabit would not be there anymore, if things change. They will have lost their hold on something they’re familiar with, and so truth is something they wish not to see.

The ultimate question is this.

If we seek and find a solution, surely it is natural to spread this solution to others. Such is the way of change, no matter how uncomfortable, or conflicting it might be.

But if people are happy in their ignorance, happy to simply exist with what they are comfortable with, happy not to know, is it right for us to burden them with what might change them and their lives forever?

“The heresy of one age becomes the orthodoxy of the next.”
“Things do not change; we change.”

I believe that if we change, the world we inhabit changes also.

I believe this is a movement towards change, everyone here knows it deep inside themselves, or they wouldn’t be here!

But change, personal, or with a bearing on the population as a whole, will never be accomplished alone. We exist in a world of division. Only a single act of unity will result in anyone taking notice, and in that unity, those who change will find both security and strength, while the people who witness it will question both the world they are deluded into accepting, and then how they might change themselves.

The process to being a Freeman seems to be a singular one, but if a date was made, a line was drawn, a moment was created where, not one, but a thousand, or twenty thousand took this path at the same moment, it would imprint itself on history, and in so doing, have the opportunity to change everyone.

A singular moment when many people all took the same action.

Unity.

In that there would be both momentum and security.

In that moment, the world might listen.

That’s the difference between subscribing and being a member.

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P-FloralPeaceSign-Large-Tra
peace
n.
1. The absence of war or other hostilities.
2. An agreement or a treaty to end hostilities.
3. Freedom from quarrels and disagreement; harmonious relations: roommates living in peace with each other.
4. Public security and order: was arrested for disturbing the peace.
5. Inner contentment; serenity: peace of mind.

Peace

A state of quiet or tranquillity; freedom from disturbance or agitation; calm; repose

Exemption from, or cessation of, war with public enemies.

Public quiet, order, and contentment in obedience to law.

Exemption from, or subjection of, agitating passions; tranquillity of mind or conscience.

Reconciliation; agreement after variance; harmony; concord.

To make or become quiet; to be silent; to stop.

peace definition
peace (pēs)
noun
1. freedom from war or a stopping of war
2. a treaty or agreement to end war or the threat of war
3. freedom from public disturbance or disorder; public security; law and order
4. freedom from disagreement or quarrels; harmony; concord
5. an undisturbed state of mind; absence of mental conflict; serenity
in full peace of mind
6. calm; quiet; tranquillity
Etymology: ME pais < OFr < L pax (gen. pacis) fang, L pacisci, to confirm an agreement, pangere, to fasten

The absence of war or other hostilities.
Inner contentment; serenity
An agreement or a treaty to end hostilities
Freedom from quarrels and disagreement

Don’t run………..walk
Don’t shout……….talk
Don’t shove………wait
Don’t presume………..understand
Don’t argue……….listen
Don’t accuse……defend

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native-wisdom
Prophecy

By definition, a prophecy refers to the message that has been communicated to a prophet which the prophet then communicates to others. In general, this can message might involve divine inspiration, revelation, or interpretation.

But the sad fact remains that there are no prophecies anymore, in the classical sense certainly.
Our society doesn’t seem to accept this manifestation of enlightenment anymore and seems to acknowledge it as something from ancient times, something from a past when religion and the concept of the divine were openly accepted by all. The concept of belief and faith, while still an integral part of many of the third world countries, has all but vanished from the Western world, and is often seen as dated, or quaint. Something traditional with no valid place in modern society, as religion has dwindled away and the expression of belief in anything other than the mundane is viewed with either suspicion or as an open proclamation of insanity.
That’s the way the world is at this moment in time, and given religions colourful past, pockerdotted with both exaltation and atrocity, this can be seen as religions ultimate penance. The price it has had to pay for its turbulent and often marred history.
There is still the fundamentalist Christian element here in the West, but they now are openly viewed as eccentric and often don’t help matters by their opinions and actions.
So, if someone says they have had a prophetic vision or message, it is a common reaction to question their mental health, rather than as in times past, to listen. In fact even expressing a personal concept of spirituality is often met with mockery or disregard, while in past times, it was as important to the individual as the air we breathe and the food we eat.
So, is prophecy a thing of the past, or has it adapted to our increasingly nihilistic and cynical view of matters that attain to the spiritual.
As a race we seem to only value and have belief in the physical, the scientific, the mundane or the practical. This of course generally skips the fact that those things we place such faith in are just as iniquitous and esoterical as the belief systems we seem to have disregarded.
How many of us can actually explain the electricity that we so take for granted, and so rely on in our daily lives?
We apparently get taught about it in school, but as so many things in our modern school system, what we learn is cursory and deeper understanding is only open to those who seek a focus on such things. And even then, does science actually provide a certain explanation of what electricity is and how it comes about. Most people are just happy that when they turn on the TV, it comes on. That’s about where the need to understand ends!
So, is our reliance on technology just another form of blind faith? Just in the same way as the uneducated commoners of medieval times, place such faith in the mutterings of priests, reading Gods will to them on Sunday in Latin.
So, if a classical representation of prophecy has vanished, or if it occurs is certainly held with almost universal cynicism, how has such a thing become manifest in these days so obviously lacking in overt spiritual acceptance?
Quiet simply, does prophecy still exist?
Well, to accept this you have to fall back on the classical definition once again, and so accept that prophecy is inspired by the divine.
And as stated, if you start telling people that your idea is the outcome of divine inspiration, you very close to being assessed by the mental health services and if you stick to your view, admission under Section 2 of the Mental Health Act.
So, is this a present response to such claims? To be denied your right to liberty and plied with antipsychotic drugs? Is this claim an obvious expression of mental illness?
And if so, then would it be fair to assess that anyone with a belief in the divine is suffering from some manifestation of mental illness?
How close are we to that diagnosis?

David Icke

I remember David Icke appearing on TV during the late 80’s, early 90’s, and not really being interested. The media labeled him a crank, and I guess by dismissing him, I brought into that, and simply dismissed him.
Now, over a decade later, and after a personal awakening as to how the world works, that I hasten to add, had nothing to do with David, I realise how the media sold him out.
Why?
I can only think of one reason.
Because what he said, wasnt what the governments wanted us to listen to. Because sadly, the media is steered by the government, and in turn, used by those who want people to behave and think in a certain way.
Back in those olde times, there wasnt any internet. Now there is and thank GOD! because people can watch things he said over a decade ago and think today….oh shit! He was right!!
This video is from 1995.

TAKING LIBERTIES (Since 1997)

Taking Liberties

The shocking truth about the erosion of our fundamental civil liberties by Tony Blair’s government will be exposed this summer in TAKING LIBERTIES, released on DVD in the UK cinemas by Revolver Entertainment October 15th 2007.

Right to Protest, Right to Freedom of Speech. Right to Privacy. Right not to be detained without charge, Innocent Until Proven Guilty. Prohibition from Torture. TAKING LIBERTIES will reveal how these six central pillars of liberty have been systematically destroyed by New Labour, and the freedoms of the British people stolen from under their noses amidst a climate of fear created by the media and government itself.

TAKING LIBERTIES uncovers the stories the government don’t want you to hear – so ridiculous you will laugh, so ultimately terrifying you will want to take action. Teenage sisters detained for 36 hours for a peaceful protest; an RAF war veteran arrested for wearing an anti-Bush and Blair T-shirt; an innocent man shot in a police raid; and a man held under house arrest for two years, after being found innocent in court. Ordinary law-abiding citizens being punished for exercising their ‘rights’ – rights that have been fought for over centuries, and which seem to have been extinguished in a decade.

If there is one film that everyone in the UK should watch, its this film.

NONCONFORMITY

My life has changed in so man ways, da do whap whap do do run run!

There is one thing certain about my life and my own personal history.

I’m a nonconformist.

I’ve always gone against the flow, always pushed my luck, always gone up against authority.

Hmm, nature or nurture. To be honest my family life in my early years was a bit of a roller coaster. Memories of getting a bath in the sink in the kitchen, which I loved btw, to memories of my mum leaving us, with me, begging her to stay as she walked through the doors, leaving us with our dad. Now at this point ultimate kudos to my dad at that time. After all, he was my step dad, and only my sister was really his, but he stuck in there, though sorry dad, you’re cooking sucked, having a seemingly endless recipe book for anything that could be put in a slow cooker.

On the flipside, my step dad couldn’t keep control of his purple headed panty python, so events like this tend to occur in marriages. Shame the parents involved don’t start thinking logically about the effects it might all have on their kids.

But,

My earliest memories are ones of an acute angle, away from my peers.

A good example is my first junior school.

Besides asking my Head master one day if we could start doing fencing! I was about 6. I remember bunking off school.

Now this is by no means an uncommon thing I know, but in junior school?

I used to get bored of the lessons, or just leave early, cos we used to have a ritual that we would put the chairs up on the tables (extra cover!) and then go through some mock religious thing involving prayers for the day etc.

I would simply leave the building while everyone else was bowed in prayer. Now at this point I think its important to admit to ourselves that school is simply an instrument of social exposure and something purely intended to condition us to the way we’re told the world should be, ie, about getting on the gravy train and becoming wage slaves. This sounds rather harsh admitedly, but think about it, school is just a concentrated miniture world, which reflects the outside world, including performance, tests, social interaction and the like. Also, ponder on the last time that a child went to a careers officer and when asked what job they want to pursue, the kid said ‘Nah, I want to be an environmental protester and paint alot!’

The officer would probably ignore the first option and focus on the painting.

‘So, you like to paint?’

‘Yeah,’ says the kid.

‘So, have you considered the idea of being a commerical artist, or maybe a painter and decorator, or going to college and university and studying art or design?’

The question here would be, what for?  So the kid can get a job? Thats what its all about, earning potential, which means taxation and revenue potential. I think kids that don’t go to school grow up with large chunks of this social conditioning missing, and so are in a position to make informed choices rather than just doing what theyre told or what is expected of them.

But back to the story.

One day when I decided that the lesson was extremely boring that day and just walked out of school. The problem came when I found that my dad was working on the school roof that day and had spotted me leaving. I hide like an ostrich, behind an out building and hoped that he might suddenly forget he saw me, thus enabling me to sneak off home. He didn’t.

I don’t recall what the outcome of this was, and I certainly don’t have any awful memories of punishment for the crime, so chances are, it simply lead, to several months later I moved to another junior school.

The reason I was told, was simply down the fact that my IQ was higher than everyone in my first junior school, so they picked another school, where I wouldn’t be bored.

My ego likes this story.

However, an incident involving our class swimming teacher, and his rush to get us ready to be picked up by our parents, may have been the real reason. Basically, after a long session in the schools very own indoor swimming pool, our teacher panicked, cos he had not bothered to check his watch. So, in panic, he marched over 20 preteens, in their swimming gear, wrapped where they could in towels, over 200 ft of school playing field to their classroom. Past 3 classrooms of other school pupils who noticed this of course and took full advantage to mock and jeer.

I remember my mum sending me outside while she ripped the teacher a new one, and very soon after this I moved schools.

And as bizarre as things tend to go, the VERY FIRST DAY at my new school spelt what seemed like decades of torture and bullying for me. You see dinner times, all the school filled long tables (think of Hogwarts dinning hall and you’re on the right lines.)

Now the secret to this dining system was that the pupils were arranged alphabetically. Now my name began with B, and for some bizarre reason, the person who had the best seat in the dining hall, the seat right next to the glasses, had a surname beginning with H.

Oh bugger me! There I am trying to analyse it. Basically, for some reason a boy whose name began with H, had somehow wangled himself a seat right at the front of all the lines for dinner. So he was first out of the whole school to get up and queue for dinner.

Problem began because on my first day, he was sick. So first day at school, I got the best seat at dinner, and by this fluke of luck, earned the sick boys enmity for the remainder of my schooling time, right up to High school.

Life’s a funny ol thing ain’t it?

Personally, I blame every moment of my deviant and dysfunctional behaviour throughout my high school years, solely on my parents. I held the record for school detentions in 1st and 2nd year at high school. Does that give you an idea of how much I DIDN’T want to be at home? Ahhhh sigh.

Being expelled from my maths class because I refused to take off my mock leather jacket and denim?

Standing for hours outside the heads office.

Being the mastermind behind the addictive game of ‘penny up the wall’, which led to a school wide ban on the game!

Never attending assembly cos I would simply walk to a nearby toilet and sit there until classes started.

In the end I would simply walk out of school when I got to a lesson I didn’t find interesting, and only ever visited the school regularly at night, to break in and steal stationary which I would use to draw on.

Then there are later memories.

Of fly posting Folkestone town centre in the middle of the night with anti Poll Tax flyers. Oh, I wasn’t part of any political group. I just felt strongly about it and that was what I decided to do.

If it made a difference who knows, because it was simply something I needed to do.

And oddly enough, despite having not done any of that crazy stuff for a while, I do find that its here again, and tugging at me.

Might be all the stuff I’ve been watching and learning recently, but I doubt it. The urge to do stuff like the fly posting, is back again?

What shall I do?

UPDATE: I’ve found something, so if I get the publicity I’m looking for, I will post it here. Could be fun. Nowadays, could also mean being arrested but hey.

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